Happy Chinese New Year to everyone, may everyone blossoms abundantly in the year of Dog
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_{May the Dog chase after the baddies also}

I once told someone not to be blinded by love, hard to believe that I actually need someone to tell me that now.

Day by day, I’m turning more and more into someone that I once said not to be. Looking at the mirror, I could hardly reconize my ownself. “When you’re living for someone else, eventually you’ll lose yourself“, couldn’t agree more.

Soon, jw might not be the jw that everyone knows anymore.
Soon, jw might became what jw swore not to be.
Soon, jw might fall from the the peak of pride.
Soon, jw might end the chapter.

Hmph, “might” … not even strong enough to use the word “will“…

Weakling, failure, loser

“You have allowed her to twist your mind until now . . . until now you have become the very thing you swore not to be.”
- Excerpt and modify from Star Wars III: Revenge of the Sith

Everyone has bad past experience, I understand that no one can erase that pain memory. It’s pitty to see someone being haunted by her own memory, not being able to let go, not being able to overcome, not able to give yourself another chance… isn’t that a torture?

Few months ago, I said to myself not to group with her anymore; few months later, I stepped into the same shit I stepped before. This time it’s few times harder than before, maybe it’s time to practice putting aside my personal feelings while dealing with something more important than me & her.

Reminder:

“You’re the group leader, not her friend. Your goal is the get the project done, not her heart”

I’m so screwed, I actually ran out of topic with her tonight.

She went offline , and came online back, still I didn’t talk to her … and there goes my night, my opportunity

I yawn and yawn again, my mind is dead tired, asking me to get the hell off my seat and head to my bed, but my body isn’t listening, my leg is not walking, my eyes don’t feel like closing.

Can’t help but to recall what happened after Eve’s House Warming 2004, my body on my bed, eyes looking at the ceiling till 7am. I don’t want that to happen again, I’ll get headache.

It’s damn 邪, after eve’s house warming, I can’t sleep; after her eve’s b’day party, I can’t sleep too and I’m pretty sure eve is not the cause!

Although I’m still online now, it’s as good as looking at the ceiling…

It’s 2:20am, still drizzling and neighbour still having fun

Back to class today and glad to see the familiar faces again.

It’s gonna be a damn long year, please let me go through it without any ‘distraction’.

This year’s target: GPA>=3.0

People are unreasonable, illogical, and self-centered.
Love them anyway.

If you do good, people will accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives.
Do good anyway.

If you are successful, you will win false friends and true enemies.
Succeed anyway.

The good you do today will be forgotten tomorrow.
Do good anyway.

Honesty and frankness make you vulnerable.
Be honest and frank anyway.

The biggest people with the biggest ideas can be shot down by the smallest people with the smallest minds.
Think big anyway.

People favor underdogs but follow only top dogs.
Fight for the underdog anyway.

What you spend years building may be destryoed overnight.
Build anyway.

People really need help, but may attack you if you help them.
Help them anyway.

GIve the world the best you’ve got and you’ll get kicked in the teeth.
Give the world the best you’ve got anyway.

- source and author unknown

Taken from Victory Over the Darkness by Neil T. Anderson

Last breakfast: Can’t recall, for ages I never had breakfast, but I think is nasi lemak
Last lunch: Seafood mee (ss2)
Last dinner: sushi (Shushi king, Low Yat Plaza)
Last supper: teh-o-ais-limau (somewhere in Ampang)
Last mamak I visited: somewhere in Ampang
Last book I read: Harry Potter and the Order of Pheonix
Last song I listened: I think it was Nicholes Teo - 寂寞边界
Last gang I hang out with: Yew Fatt, JC and Christine
Last show I watched: Apprentice (s01e12)¹
Last DVD I watched: Mr. and Mrs. Smith
Last game I played: Genji (PS2)
Last word I said: 1
Last word I heard: 1
Last thing on my mind: “damn Digi”

¹_{Season 1 Episode 12}

Leaving my mark here as the first entry of year 2006, wishing everyone:

“New year, new life, new girlfriend/boyfriend friends, new -you name it-”